I wrote a book. And I am scared AF!

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SO! Let me catch you up on life (mine to be exact).

OUR WEDDING VIDEOS

After 3 years of receiving an overwhelming number of emails from women who had also lost their mothers to cancer I decided to write a book about my experience with [my] grief. Mainly because I was exhausting my sanity trying to answer all the questions I was getting from you guys. I figured if I wrote a memoir laced with tips on grieving that maybe, just maybe, I’d be kinda ready when I was approached about the subject.

I’ve wanted to be author since…forever. I can remember having fake book readings with my Barbie’s on my bedroom floor. And for the longest time, writing this book was just something I had told my good girlfriends I was “GOING TO DO”. You know, I’m going to travel more, I’m going to lose these 40 pounds magically…the usual “yea ok, sure” thoughts of our lives. God had a bigger plan for me and at the end of 2015 a publishing company reached out to me. Because God knew I was not going to get this done any other way.

What you don’t know is that…

I’m terrified of EVERYTHING. EVERY DAY.

My mother was my rock. I ran everything past her. Even if I didn’t do what she suggested (and most times I didn’t), she was the person I bounced my big dreams off of. She was the one who believed in me the most. No matter how bold and audacious my dreams were, she knew I could do it. I never knew exactly how much I needed that reassurance.

 

So what exactly am I terrified of?

You know what…I’m terrified that no one will like my book. That no one will buy it. I am terrified that no one will show up to my book tour (maybe I should start a GoFundMe because…#SponsorsWhereYallAt). I am terrified at the idea of moving forward in my career without my mother’s advice. But most importantly I am terrified of having all these goals and ideas and not acting on them. So that’s what keeps me going!

So 6 months after signing a two book deal my first book is finally done. It’s why I have been MIA…on everything. Friends. Fun. You! I’ve sacrificed every piece of my life and now I am finally finished (for now, I’ll be starting book #2 soon).

Because I love you like fresh warm buttered biscuits (damn I want some now) I have a treat for you. I know that you’re gonna order my book anyways (<—- hint, hint, go order if you haven’t) but here’s my first chapter for FREE.

Download Chapter One

Feel free to skim read or fully read at your leisure! All I ask is that you offer up 140 characters of your first impression via Twitter using the hashtag #ThingsIWishIKnew or write a customer review on Amazon!

 

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5 Comments

  1. Katawaba R Brown
    August 25, 2016 / 11:02 am

    Hey Ty,

    I have been reading your blog for three months now. I love it, and I am not a blog connoisseur; however, I enjoy the “realness” of your words. I, too, loss my mother. I was ten years old, and since having my daughter, I miss her even more than I did when I was younger. Our connection and my love for all things word based, I wanted to read your first chapter. I am unable to download it. Please assist, and you will be an inspiration via your book just as you are through your blog!

  2. Tammy
    August 27, 2016 / 2:11 am

    What courage! Keep pressing forward!

  3. Deborah Reed
    September 5, 2016 / 2:56 pm

    I lost my mother in 2006 I wish I could have downloaded your first chapter but I wasn’t able to but I should like to read that first chapter of you can help me with this I’d appreciate it reedeborah7@gmail.com

  4. December 27, 2016 / 8:58 pm

    I just finished reading your book. It was one of the most helpful books that I’ve read since my mom passed two years ago. I could relate to so much of what you shared. I had a similar relationship to my mom and had similar feelings that you had after she passed, including not wanting to be here (but not really wanting to kill myself). I appreciate your focus on gratitude. That gives me hope and has shifted my perspective on things. I’ve included the book as a recommended resource on my work web site. I’m a psychotherapist. Thank you for taking the leap and writing the book!

  5. Carolyn M
    September 22, 2017 / 3:50 pm

    Hi Ty,
    My Mother-in-Law passed about 3 weeks ago. I wanted to find a book that would help my husband deal with his loss. I ordered your book from Amazon and read it before sharing it with him. I have lost my only child and both my parents. Although I have experienced loss and grief, in my opinion, everyone grieves differently and it is good to know that we are not alone in our thoughts and feelings. Thank you for sharing with the world!

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